Novel Questions

I'm editing my post on directing, so until then...

I read the two novels I'm working on. Both ideas disturb me because they are incredibly dark. I'm not afraid of being judged, I have more a problem that I'm not one hundred percent comfortable with the ideas.

I don't know how much of it is I'm pushing myself so it doesn't feel safe. I don't know if this dark style will be my long lasting style. They are what I'm feeling (the stories, not darkness) so I need to write them now. They are a huge contrast to sketch comedy, which I'm also doing right now.

I would like to be known for comedy and comedy writing. I know nothing's sacred in comedy and I love Mel Brooks answer to why he has Nazis in so much of his work, the only way you can defeat that type of evil is with laughter. But maybe some things can't be funny. At this point and time I don't see how I can make these novels funny. There is humor in them and they are entertaining. They are also rough drafts.

I got physcically ill writing the one. I don't know if it's because I'm feeling the situation of my characters. I'm getting an emotional response from me, I don't know if readers will just be turned off. I also don't know if it's my body telling me, "No, don't write this. Don't bring this story into the world."

I don't know if I should write them, let them sit, then look at the rough drafts and see how I feel or write a novel about fluffy bunnies. Wait. That's been done. Darn it.